| ... |
[12 Dec 2004|02:20am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 indescribable |
] |
*Private*
I saw hiro a few days ago~..It was fun! we went out and did stuff..but then we went to this weird german place and things got weird...I think he's having problems at home and stuff..he can't go back home...I invited him and his brother to stay with me I wonder if he'll ever get back to me~ i'll have to cheer him up too..he looks like he needs it.
After that I met up with Taki-san and Ma-kun. short visit..I think there having problems with thingys, but they'll be ok~ ma-kun and taki-san are meant to be together foreverr!
Andd..last of all..I met hikaru-kun..we...were gonna do stuff...but then he left early....he always leaves...i'm scared....does he hate me?..I hope not.
*public*
sooon sooon is my birthday~ I wonder if anyone is doing something special~~ hehe..soon enough soon enoughh~
*filtered for hiro*
hii hiro-kun~~..I was wondering..umm..if..we could talk sometime? I wanna ask you something..
*filtered for hikaru*
hikaru-kun...uhm...youdonthatemeright?okeeebyee ... ...
*filtered for ma-kun and taki-san*
how are you both doing~ good I hope...~ ever wanna do something without..uh...falling depressed and ending up in a odd soap oprea life feel free to give me a calll~
|
|
|
[04 Dec 2004|01:59pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 depressed |
] |
*Private*
Hiro has been gone for weeks noww....hikaru-kun never stays with me anymore...ma-kun is gone from everywhere..Why isn't anyone around anymoree?
I know everyone's been busy, but no ones been telling me anythingg..I don't know what to do anymore, I don't like being alone and I don't have a happy family to go home tooo~ I miss spending time with people...Because I don't like thinking of things to do alone, what to do alone, I can't stand being alone~~
*Filtered for ma-kun*
Your not dead right? You don't answer your phone anymore...same with taki..call me if you can~..I wanna do something...
*filtered for hiro*
Hiroo hiroo..what happenend to youu? you dissapeared from school and everything!..when will you be backk?
*filtered for hikaru*
... ... ......miss you...
|
|
| maadnesssss |
[11 Nov 2004|06:47am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 gloomy |
] |
No one's telling me what's going on~~~~...Hikaru forgot to pick me up~~~~....someone get me out of here!!! It's crappy and stupid and stufff.......News has been saying weird stuff about Tohma Seguchi...Only met him once..but...respect him anyway, he was nice. Maybe that's why no one's been able to come get me..there all mourning or something.... .. ....I still wanna leave~~~
|
|
| ...no... |
[07 Nov 2004|07:56pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 bored |
] |
Everyone seems to have forgotten about me...and there's been no one around to take me home so i'm stuck here....Ma-kun and taki-san forgot about me...my parents think i'm dead...hikaru-kun is too busy to come see me...i'm so lonely here!~ hospitals are booring!!!!!
*private*
Kade-san hurt hikaru-kun awhile ago...I don't know if it was a misunderstanding or something...but....I don't like that he took him.....that's not right..i'll..have to talk to him sometime, I need to know why he did what he did... I miss cooking~ get out heree!!!
[*]Medical Profile[*]
Name : Yuhei Koba
Age : 15
Condition : Decent, To be sent home tommorow.
Special information : A search for family members is digging quite deep, Subject being looked into.
|
|
| fading.... |
[31 Oct 2004|12:53am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 pained |
] |
Why......wont.....anyone...visit?... ..lonely.....hate..it..here.....shot...why.....did...he...why???
[=]Medical Profile[=]
Name: Yuhei Koba
Age: 15
Sex: M
Condition : Critical, Shot 4 times in left side. Condition gradualy worsening. If this doesn't he will not live throughout Tuesday. Unforseen problem.
Family: No family was found to the patient, one visitor coming and going frequently is predicted to be a friend of the patient. Has not talked to doctor's.
*Filtered for ma-kun*
...gomen...nasai.........gomen....nasai.....ma-kun where..are..you??...are..you...alright?...if..youcan...please..visit me...
|
|
| ....Meant to be... |
[17 Oct 2004|11:37am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
depressed |
] |
I guess i'm gonna end up alone again.. ma-kun and taki-san are sending me away....why does my family have to keep ruining my life?...why do I have to keep making horrible decisions?...I'm gonna end up dieing alone because I'm nothing to anyone and all i'm ever gonna end up making is mistake after mistake..i'm just so stupid....and I didn't even realize that much.....just going to end up sent away forever.
**Private**
How could I of actualy said that....??.....right after I was so sure he hated me I told him I loved him.....I asked what love felt like and he said he didn't know..then I found out he was having a relationship..He..lied....I guess I had it coming after not telling him the truth about my age...that wasn't fair....just I wish I had a chance and I don't wanna give up!! no matter how much it burns...but I guess I won't have much of a choice if i'm sent away...is it really...what's meant to happen? is this how heart break feels???...is my life just a dream..
**Filtered for Taki**
.... ...Thank you.....for being honest......that...was atleast something.....i'd...still like to go to the movies with you sometime..
**Filtered for Ma-kun**
...I guess i'm gonna have to miss the warmth you gave me..it was the first time i'd ever really been warm inside...the first time I was so sure something was gonna work out...are you sure this isn't just a dream? that would make alot of sense right about now..
|
|
| Worry...Wary....ugh |
[15 Oct 2004|02:58pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
crushed |
] |
***Private Post***
After ma-kun was so nice to me I failed him....he did so much for me...he took care of me...he protected me...but now he's really hurt because of me. I tried my best to help him..but I couldnt....I don't understand!! why does he wanna protect me so much that he would sacrafice himself...I...I dont want him to be hurt...this is all my fault and I don't know what I can do.. this is all because my mom wants a sex tape?..why does she want a sex tape...What IS a sex tape and why would ma-kun go through all that to avoid giving her it!...I don't know who's right and wrong but I know I want to be with ma-kun and..he must be right. he's so good to me..
***Public!***
Ma-kun is...in the hospital I guess...and it's all my fault!!...I don't know what to do..i'm angry at myself but i'm afraid. I met akeyima-san that same day..I didn't know it was him and..I..I guess I didn't give him the proper respect when he was trying to get me away for a while. I guess that's good..ooh and I also found out I can't trust my family..that hurts. I'm staying with seguchi-san..it's a incredible honour but i'm sure i'm a bother to him since his baby was born the same day I came to stay with him..I have to make it up to him and be sure to not be troubling him well he should only be happy about having his baby.. I hope I wasn't rude to him when we met. All I can think of is ma-kun....I should find a place to stay ASAP so I can stop bothering people in there time of joy.
*Filtered for ma-kun*
I..if you read this..then i'm sorry. I should of called an ambulence and not tried to help you on my own and thats horrible of me. I really really like you..please don't hate me.
*filtered for taki*
taki-san.. I'm sorry I didn't protect ma-kun..I just did what he told me too. I hope your not mad. I'm sorry to be such a nusciance..
|
|
| k..kowaiii....scared |
[13 Oct 2004|04:12pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 embarrassed |
] |
*Private post*
I-I think I made a mistake today.....ma-kun kissed me, then taki-san kissed me...why is everyone kissing me?...taki-san told me not to trust everyone so easily..he doesn't mean if they look nice right? I don't understand why he kept talking about "dicks and holes" but i'm sure i'll find out sometime..
*public post*
Ma-kun took me out for breakfest~ he's gonna take care of me well my parents are mad!.....what am I gonna do? they can't know i'm staying with ASK they'd think I was crazy...I think..Ma-kun will take care of me though! I woke up Taki-san a bit later. he wasn't very happy and was angry about last night..i'm not sure why but he didn't remember me so I pretended to be his asisstant for a while. I got him coffee and I think he started to feel better when I massaged his head! he reallly enjoyed it when I was tugging and rubbing at it! I don't know why...he ....gave me a talk about love and sex I think..I didn't really understand it but I guess I can't trust everyone I just met..how are you supposed to give people a chance if you don't trust them? oh well... we watched T.V after and I felt better...I think i'll go wake ma-kun now~
*Filtered for ma-kun*
Your still gonna take me to ng today right? you promised! hehe...come on! it'll be funnn! just tell me when you wanna go.
*Filtered for Taki-san*
Taki-san..?.. Can we go see a movie later...I want you to help me with something that always happens and is annoyingg~
|
|
| Dream come trueee!!! |
[12 Oct 2004|04:00pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 in looove |
] |
...u..umm..Hi..I'm..Yuhei Koba and today was the greatest day of my life!
I met Taki-san and Ma-kun~~.....or atleast I think I did. They seemed kind of tipsy and it was confussing how Taki-san kept thinking I was a tree...hmmm....I dont know im growing leaves...anyays they were supposedly taki-san and ma-kuna and..and....it's hard to believe them after the last person tried to be ken-chan and hurt me.
It was so much fun going home with them..hehe...nothing made sense and I think it's still all a dream since they seemed so tipsy and ma-kun seemed to like me more then too much. i'm still going to find out if there the real deal or not by visiting NG! yay! it'll fun either way! hehehe.....though....Taki did look a little weird when he saw me sleeping on ma-kun
~ On ma-kun's computer! it's so fancy!....not really! but that's so coooolll!! because there so cool!!!...But..it still must be a dream...why would they care so much about one little fan? what's there to like in me? i'm so ordinary..hehe i'll post about NG later!! i'm gonna meet all the cool peoplee!!!!
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8){kind=small}
koba_yuhei's journal